Went to support group on the 17th. It was nice but my anxiety is so high about the pschy eval. I wish I didn't have to wait as much as I do.
I worry that the person I will be seeing will say no or that I need longer to prepare and I already feel like I might back out if the wrong thing is said. This is just so scary on some levels. I want this tool, but it seems like it could become a threat, or might not fix the diabetes that I deal with. Both of which I am not sure I can deal with very well.
I have been tracking as much as possible and trying to organized my food better. But I realized how addicted I am to Starbucks and the ease of fast food. Yes I can make healthy decisions there, but it is still not good for me or my pocket book. I worry that I won't be able to stop. But I am trying.
I've cut down to three times a week at Starbucks, and I am trying to stay away from fast food at all cost.Work makes that harder... How do people prep meals? That is my number one issue. I can't seem to time manage meal prep into my day as well and I'd like. Though now its just breakfast and not lunch too. or Lunch and dinner. I can't believe what I was eating. Tracking is a life saver.
Well today I see the social worker/ counselor for my psychological eval. I thought I'd be more stressed but I am actually excited. I am hoping she might have a suggestion for a counselor outside that deal with food addiction and using food as an emotional crutch ( my number one issues).
Wish me Luck
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